In 2015, my biggest heartbreak so far was the catalyst to a whole new world for me, and in that new world lived indoor cycling and more specifically, a spin class where you basically have a therapeutic dance party on a bike every single class. I discovered a world where I felt alive, strong and free, like a sweaty, unstoppable goddess even when outside of that world other parts of me fell short. It gave me a sense of power, confidence and freedom that I began taking with me outside of that world, it began pouring into other areas of my life, and it began to change me. Ready for a change, I moved to Aspen, CO from NYC and put on my vision board: “I want to be a cycling instructor in the mountains.” Within weeks, a new indoor cycling franchise announced their opening. I auditioned and the rest is history.
Creating a community of other sweaty, unstoppable dreamers in a world where you are free to push yourself is the most satisfying job I have ever held. Yes, we need to talk our shit out, but mostly, we need to lean into our feelings, own them and learn from them. I know this transformation is possible in the spin room because I have experienced it first hand. It is a responsibility that I don’t take lightly and I work everyday to become a better version of myself for the sake of what I can offer other riders to feel for themselves on the bike.
I use the spin room as an opportunity to hold space for transformation. I aim to create a class that feels like a kickass workout, church, and a therapy session all at the same time. Through my different modes of coaching, I help facilitate shift in our culture from a scarcity, victim mentality to acceptance of who we really are – masterful and perfectly imperfect beings. I want to leave a legacy of leadership, as someone who helped shape more enlivened, authentic leaders in this world. And, yes, I believe this all can be attained in a dark room with powerful music that makes you want to move like you are at a concert on a bike going nowhere.
Metrics and numbers are powerful and helpful to track progress. It really is so satisfying to see proof that you are up leveling your ride and life, but what I think we all really want from our workouts is a cathartic release. Simply put, we want to feel alive on a deep, visceral level and we want to have some fun along the way! The Khoreo rides at Kondition help to serve this goal. Even if you don’t think you are a “dancer” or “not coordinated” you are a human being so I know you like to move. Letting go of what that looks like could be an incredible life lesson to learn from, and just like anything, the more we practice something, the more confident we get in our skills and in ourselves.
Life is a mirror and how we show up on the bike mirrors back to us what we need to compassionately see and shift in ourselves in order to become the fullest expressions of ourselves. I truly believe how we ride is how we live.
“What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.” Henry David Thoreau
